Mello Bear

It's been exactly two months since you crossed the rainbow bridge. I miss you so so so much. Life hasn't been the same without you and there's this huge void in my heart. It hurts so much. My heat does not feel whole anymore. Some days are better than others....it helps when I am distracted and busy, but the pain still remains. 

I miss you. I miss your company. I miss holding you. I miss kissing you. I miss your smell. I miss your paws. I miss your purrs. I miss giving you belly rubs. I miss I miss having you as my little shadow, following me everywhere. I miss petting you. I miss talking to you. I miss sleeping next to you. I miss napping with you. I miss stuffing my face into your belly. I miss dancing with you. I miss coming home and having you come down to greet me or waiting for me on top of the stairs. I miss brushing you. I miss watching you nap. I miss playing with you. I miss your huge jumps when you play. I miss you waking me up early in the morning to feed you. I miss watching as you run towards me when I feed you dinner. I miss calling you my big booty boy. I miss petting your big butt butt. I miss taking photos of you. I miss playing hide and seek with you, you always knew where to find me. I miss your gallop. I miss giving you chin scratches. I miss seeing you always hydrate yourself. I miss scooping your litter. I miss picking off your boogers. I miss you always trying to get into my closet even though you know you are not supposed to. I miss watching you sleep on the crochet/knitted sleeping pad I made for you. I miss your gentle and shyness. I miss how you always like to involve yourself and know when there's something new in the house. I miss your curiosity. I miss you sleeping by my feet. I miss you coming downstairs to keep me company. I miss you always running away when I am vacuuming. I miss you watching me make matcha in the morning. I miss watching you look out the window. I miss giving you your favorite treats. I miss you banjo-ing over for pets. I miss cutting your nails. I miss how you love the simple things like sleeping in a box rather than a fancy cushion bed. I miss everything about you. I miss you so much. 

You were honestly the best cat ever. The perfect cat for me. You meant the world to me. You weren't just a cat, you were so much more to me. You were my best friend, my baby, my biggest emotional support, my family. You loved me for me and accepted all my flaws. You made me appreciate the little things in life. You always managed to pull me out when my mind goes to a really dark place. You made my mental health more stable throughout these past few years. No matter how difficult life got, you were always there for me and comforted me. With you by my side, I knew I would be able to overcome anything. It hurts so much knowing that I have to go through life now without you by my side.

Our time together was cut too short, it is so unfair. You were so young still and was supposed to have many more years left. I thought I had way more time with you and I wished I did. If I could've, I would trade years of my life so that you would be able to live longer. You were supposed to be here when I got married, when I had kids...Some moments, it still feels so surreal that you are really gone. I see you everywhere in the house. I still find your furs in my clothes. 

I hope you are happy and loved, and have made lots of friends across the rainbow bridge. I hope it is filled with endless treats and nap time. I hope you haven't forgotten about me. 

I hope you know how much I still love you, always and forever. I will never ever forget you. 

I love you so much Mello Bear.